Saturday, September 13, 2014

Break-up

This post was blogged in June 2014. About 2-months ago from today. Never got to finished this post but now it doesn't really seem to matter anymore. Two-months ago I decided to blog about how I felt two years ago but never finished it and it's ironic because I am re-living the same nightmare 10X worst than I have ever imagined. I no longer see the point in finishing this post because I was planning on concluding how happy and content I was with my "then" boyfriend at the time but he cheated on me. People who cheat on their significant others are always searching for "bigger" and "better" things. Cheaters don't feel any guilt for their actions. I guess I was never enough for him. He pretended to love and care for me. He was unhappy in our relationship but felt the need to drag it on until he met someone "better" to cheat on me with. I gave that guy my whole heart and soul and in return, I get nothing but a scar on my heart that I will bear for the rest of my life.



Somewhat continuing on from my last post, I have been M.I.A from my blog for almost 2-years now. I feel like I need to explain myself for my blog's neglect. Please be respectful of this post. This is still really difficult for me to talk about and even think about. These are my deepest insecurities that I have went through and still currently struggling to be at peace with, however, I do not think I will ever be at peace to be completely honest. 

Winter of 2012, I went through a terrible break-up that ruined my life. I know that sounds so dramatic and childish but I'm telling it like it is and I don't want to get into too much detail. I was at a dark place in my life. I was recovering from cancer and had lost a tremendous amount of weight. On top of that, I was going through a break up that just tore me apart. I was so heart-broken and depressed, which had made me physically weaker by the day. I literally felt that I had lost a piece of my life-my soul. I cried myself to sleep every night and woke up with no driven goal in life.


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Sunday, August 3, 2014

California State Fair 2014

California State Fair 2014 in Sacramento, California. We went on Saturday and let me tell you, it was blazing balls of hot fire that day! It was such a dry hot day. Had to turn on my air conditioner on even at 11pm at night! But overall, it was a memorable night! Wished I got more pictures but we ran out of time and even my camera battery died. Until next year Cal State Fair.














Awkward pose lol



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Thursday, July 31, 2014

Before I head off to bed...

Currently really liking this pic of Elle & I two days before he left the States to go back to his home country. I miss......y-..no one.


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